If you asked twelve year old me what my life would be like as a teenager, I would have been shocked. Over the last few years, I've been diagnosed with a series of mental illnesses that I've struggled with tremendously. The only thing that's keeping me together is my family. The support from my sisters has been overwhelming and I couldn't be more thankful for them.
I few weeks ago, my sister found a song that reminds her of our relationship. It's called "Deep End" by Holly Humberstone. It's about someone very close to Holly, most likely her sister, who was going through a hard time. Holly's message was basically talking about how she helped her sister with the struggles she was facing. My favorite lines would have to be:
I see you on the weekend
Dancing like a star
You've practiced your lines to convince us you're fine, but I know
That's not where you are
Once in a blue moon you may come undone
We're made up of the same blood
I'll be your medicine if you let me
Give you reason to get out of bed
Sister, I'm trying to hold off the lightning
And help you escape from your head
This is extremely relatable to her and I. Whenever we hang out I go through a moment or two where I have to fake a smile. She always gets me out of the house though. When I have a hard week, I look forward to the weekend when she can come over and make sure I'm not in bed all day. She is my medicine. She is the one who holds off the lightning and helps me escape from my head. I will forever be grateful for her. Although we cry every time we listen to the song, it's the one thing we have just to ourselves. She's my best friend and this song has brought us even closer together.
I'm writing this article to reach out to others who struggle with their mental health. Think about who or what is convincing you to stay. What's the one thing you have that makes you the happiest in the world? What helps you escape from your head? We all go through hard things in life, some more than others, but at the end of the day, there's a reason we're still here. Think about that for a moment.